Drake - Doing It Wrong

“When a good thing goes bad it’s not the end of the world
It’s just the end of a world, that you had with one girl
And she’s the reason it happened, but she’s overreacting
And it’s all because she don’t want things to change

So cry if you need to, but I can’t stay to watch you
That’s the wrong thing to do
Touch if you need to, but I can’t stay to hold you
That’s the wrong thing to do
Talk if you need to, but I can’t stay to hear you
That’s the wrong thing to do
Cause you say you love me, and I’ll end up lying
And say I love you too

We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together
But we sure make it feel like we’re together
Because we’re scared to see each other with somebody else”

Future - Same Damn Time

“Fuck two bad bitches…. at the same damn time”

Immature - Feel The Funk

“Let the music

Take your mind

Into a place

You never been before

Take the time

To think about memories

Of you and I

It’s alright for you to be

Next to me

So I can hold you tight

Girl the mood is right”

Checkmate

 Would be okay to have someone around…. someone one to text me, miss me, wanna be around me, think of me…. instead of feeling like no one cares…. it’s the feeling I hate the most…. steady looking at the phone waiting for it to ring and it doesn’t…. anticipating a text but still to alert….. calling the people who are suppose to care the most and no answer…. wondering is it me…. they say people come into your life for a reason but what is the reason no one in my life actually cares…. don’t get it at all…. I don’t want a pity party…. even thought about what I should say before I posted this blog but it’s my blog and my footsteps and some are not going to be perfect, some may go downhill, but it’s my story…. they say only God can Judge u and I get that but recently I been judged so harshly it hurts…. and it’s over something I can’t control…. maybe this is the reason why no one stays, friends disappear, at times I feel broken…. maybe it is my seizures…. it’s the hardest thing in life I’ve had to deal with…. and every time I meet someone I’m honest about them…. even go as far as saying they are not as bad as they once were…. but still their interest fades and another person who I see something with is gone…. I’m not the one to judge…. I don’t let these seizures take over my life by why is it when I’m honest about them it’s the most bad thing in the world? I’m not dependent on anybody, I still take care of myself …. shit done had most of them alone so why makes u think if u get close they would be a problem for u? In all I’m sitting here questioning everything around me…. will I ever had someone accept me for me, someone explore my mind and learn my heart as well, someone who can look past my circumstance and take a chance on romance…. just someone to text me, miss me, wanna be around me and think of me…. sometimes I wonder…. I don’t want the good in me wasted or put to the side because I’m steady over look I want a person to be open mined…. whether it’s a friend or a future mate…. just be ACCEPTING